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The Suffocating Feelings - Photo by Yan Krukau: https://www.pexels.com Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night, haunted by thoughts that just wouldn’t let you rest? That was me a few nights ago. Something was bothering me, something that had been lingering in my heart for the past week. No matter how much I tried to shake it off, it kept resurfacing, demanding my attention. When I traced back to the root of my discomfort, I found the source. The memories played fresh in my mind, as if they had just happened yesterday (even though, in reality, they were from years ago). And the trigger? A recent conversation with a friend who saw me as misguided and attempted to “bring me back” to what she believed was the right path. I regretted engaging in that conversation. I could have stayed silent or changed the topic, but instead, I challenged her viewpoint. I wanted her to realize that we were no longer on the same journey, so she would respect me and let me walk my path. But just as I...

  Love your body -  Photo by Andrea Piacquadio: https://www.pexels.com Have you ever thought of your body as your buddy? Not just a vessel that carries you through life, but a true companion; one that tirelessly works behind the scenes to keep you alive, healthy, and functional?  Well, to be honest, I used to think of my body as just a body, something impersonal and utilitarian. It existed for a purpose, sure, but it wasn’t something I saw as a being deserving my care, gratitude, or affection. In fact, for years, I just used it without thinking about its needs or even acknowledging its existence beyond what was necessary. But that perspective began to shift after attending a workshop where I was introduced to the idea of “thanking your body.” At first, the concept seemed absurd. Thank my legs, arms, lungs, and heart? What am I, crazy? But during the workshop, we were guided through a simple practice of gratitude for our bodies, and I decided to give it a try.  That n...

People change and that’s our nature. So, lumrah dan wajar saja bila perubahan ini kemudian banyak berperan dalam kelangsungan interkonektivitas antara manusia satu dan lainnya. Entah itu keluarga, sahabat, teman, kekasih, ataupun pasangan, pada satu titik semua pasti mengalaminya. Namun saat perubahan itu tidak sejalan dengan apa yang kita yakini, I believe it’s totally okay to say, “Sorry, I choose not to engage with the way you practice self-growth.” If ever there’s one huge thing I’ve done and continuously practiced in my healing journey, that would be drawing boundaries. Sebagaimana saat kita berkendara di jalan, menjaga jarak aman menjadi kunci penting terhadap keselamatan kita, and so is the relationship we manage with other humans. Drawing boundaries is indeed a great milestone for me. Sama sekali bukan hal yang mudah untuk dilakukan, terutama saat pertama kali. Namun ini adalah cara yang sehat dalam membina hubungan saat kita menjalani peran sebagai social being. Gue ingat seka...

Hari Minggu itu gue pergi power walk satu jam lebih pagi dari biasanya. Tujuannya: agar dapat pulang lebih awal. Gue memang telah merencanakan hal itu sejak malam hari mengingat teriknya matahari belakangan ini benar-benar di luar kebiasaan. Dan benar saja, belum lagi genap pukul 9 pagi, panas dan terangnya matahari sudah terasa seperti nyaris pukul 11 siang. Tiba di rumah gue tergoda melihat hula hoop. Sepertinya menyenangkan untuk lanjut main hula hoop sambil santai nonton “Detective Conan” episode terbaru yang biasanya sudah diunggah satu channel langganan gue di Youtube. Tapi gue urungkan niat itu karena masih banyak agenda yang perlu gue jalankan. Salah satunya adalah agenda yang mungkin terdengar remeh bagi orang lain. Agenda yang mungkin remeh itu justru adalah prioritas buat gue. Itu adalah agenda yang sangat penting, yaitu “me time” with my buddy which is my body. Baca juga: Me and Journaling Yes, my body is my buddy. Teman dan sahabat terdekat gue ternyata adalah my body. Mak...

Do you have stories that you miss to read or listen? The kind of story that makes you feel so fulfilled. Kisah yang bikin rasa lapar dan haus kalian terhadap sebuah cerita begitu terpenuhi sehingga menjadi kenyang dan tenang. Coz I do. There is this kind of story that I miss to read or listen to.  Gue rindu membaca cerita yang menghangatkan hati. Cerita yang tak jarang bikin gue relate sehingga merasa menjadi dan menjalani hidup sebagai manusia normal karena ternyata ada manusia lain yang juga mengalami hal serupa. Tapi di mana bisa membaca tulisan-tulisan mereka itu? Gue jadi teringat seorang teman di sebuah retreat yang kami ikuti bersama. Dia tampak begitu unik di mata gue. Saat sedang berlatih di kelas, ia tampak sangat santai ketika mentor kami sedang menjelaskan. Kadang dengan cueknya ia duduk dengan mengangkat satu kaki di kursi - hal yang agak kurang lazim untuk ditemui di negara kita. Namun saat sesi meditasi tiba, ia menjadi begitu khusyu. Baca juga cerita: My Four-Leaf C...